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Evening Meanderings of the 29th of December

 And i believed my father! I was doomed! A fish out of water. I was thrown to the proverbial wolves. I picture myself like that child of my youth who has been abandoned by my mother, screaming for her to come back. Utterly deflated! My heart ripped out of my soul! I was in the darkness that i was not familiar with. I had been protected for 20+ yrs from this side of the world. A child in the light and now had been thrown into the dark, deep hole physically, and spiritually! I was utterly ALONE!
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At the beginning

 Once upon a time does not seem appropriate for this story...... Because this story really starts in my twenties. In my mid twenties i found myself very lost in my mind, body and soul. I quickly went from being married with a family to homeless with not even two pennies to rub together. My parents, siblings, friends and my chosen family had all turned their backs to me with a stance so heavy that i begged, pleaded for their forgiveness only to receive a very cold shoulder that continues to this day. I grieved for years over this treatment even after i have corrected my ways that caused them to react in this manner. My heart ached for their love, i longed for their family connection again. I longed for my friends again. But, alas, it would never come! My family are doused in the Jehovah's Witness cult. When a person that is raised in the cult goes against their beliefs and principles.....they die spiritually and sometimes physically! I felt abandoned again. The first time i was aban
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